I slowly learn that childhood dreams are not reality. That happily ever after is nothing but a child's bedtime story. Once put back on the shelf it doesn't apply to your life or mine. Forget about the love. Lose the rhymes and forget about the times.
The times when you thought true love came easily, when you believed in "meant to be's." When you believed in candlelight and how everything would be alright.
But the truth hurts more than these daydreams of the stars in a young girls eyes when she believes.
These stars, they've gone so far, shooting away the hopes of a prince charming, passing by are the arms she thought she would take refuge in – now its only about who will win.
Pride takes front seat to the back seat fantasy that used to drive with notions of forever after, I no longer even know what it is I am after, or if there's an end to this tale that rhymes with happily ever.
I feel lost in a game I didn't even want to play. I just wanted to love and be loved the same- Now I truly know what the lyrics mean when they say, "You're here, But so far away."
And I say… Do you remember?
I push and you pull away, it's become a game and we tumble in pain, it's a shame it had to end this way, when all I wanted was for you to say…
*I love you.*
I'm sorry I'm not always the girl for you. I'm sorry I can't always be strong and I'm sorry for the times when I'm wrong.
When you're hurting I cry inside, you touch my heart with just your eyes. Eyes of sorrow, eyes of laughter- I wish I was your ever after. "
-If only I believed we could get past all of this- But fairy tales… They don't exist.
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