It All Starts With A
Thought
1/26/12 2:10 A.M
Awake in the early morning hours once more and with only my
thoughts for company I reflect upon my past and ponder my future.
Why is it I’m here, where I am today? How is it that I’m
sitting on this bed, in this room with these thoughts?
Does it all come down to some great meaning, some larger
than life plan? Have my experiences shaped me for something more than I can
currently fathom?
Often I’ve contemplated the intricacies of, “The Cycle of
Life;” to live, to learn, to feel and to love.
Does it all break down to science or is there more to life
beyond my realm of understanding?
Yes, we are all connected. Even quantum physics says so, but
to what extent and why? The how’s and whys seem to go perplexingly unanswered.
Something in me says I stand for something more, something
greater - something wonderful. Is it not relative though? And will it matter in
the larger scheme of things?
Even as a child I’ve felt as if I’ve lived a thousand
lifetimes. Is that possible? Is there some memory in my DNA that allows me to
feel this way and if so, to what purpose?
So many unexplained emotions, sensations, and need for
something beyond the average life.
I feel it… I always have.
Therefore is it so?
It seems I have been waiting my whole life for something……
But what?
I stumbled upon your words completely by accident. I find it comical since I have been searching for someone with the intention of finding her and making sure she never hurts anyone else again. Yet, I find something more than the negative I sought. I find a reason to forget her, let her live, hopefully in peace. I see the good side of her in you...in the way you write. And I hope she learns to write just for herself, and not for show.
ReplyDeleteAnd maybe one day, I will have the courage to reopen my blogs again and share with a like-minded soul like yourself the parts I tucked away, the words I tried to hide.
I hope one day we could converse. The world knows I need at least someone of the same sex who follows the same beat of a silent drum I dance to.
Much love lavacat86
Elevatorgirl
Thank you Elevatorgirl.Good luck with your endeavors. :)
ReplyDelete"He has not learned the lesson of life who does not every day surmount a fear. Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves."