Infinite Sadness

For lack of a better word and keeping it simple I'm just plain sad.

I'm sad that nation's are run the way they are,  that corporations and the bottom dollar prevails, that wars are waged for the wrong reasons, that money or the lack there of instills fear and perpetuates anxiety, that the ecosystems fragile balance is threatened by humans careless neglect, that children are still starving in a world where there's plenty of food for all,  that families are more broken than not,  that everyone feels so damn alone when the population is larger than ever before, that people can't appreciate the beauty that extends just past their concrete walls, that animals can be treated so inhumanely.

That some how. ... On some innate level. .. We have all lost a connection to something more important and wonderful. .

Because of this,  I am infinitely sad.

So I sit here by the ocean weary ...... waiting... for something.

Someday

Someday when you're you're all alone
I will be there, cause your hearts my home
Someday you will know
But for now,
you'll see just a glimpse of what may be

And on that day,  when you're all alone
Will you remember your hand in my own
Cause on this day it will be
The passage that brings you to me

Favorite Quotes

L'amour fait les plus grandes douceurs et les plus sensibles infortunes de la vie
Love makes life's sweetest pleasures and worst misfortunes

“Hope is the dream of a soul awake.”

“Could a greater miracle take place than for us to look through each other’s eyes for an instant?” ― Henry David Thoreau

"What lies before us and what lies behind us are small matters compared to what lies within us. And when we bring what is within out into the world, miracles happen." -Thoreau

“I am saying something about the ineffable. I am saying something about the ultimate mystery. You can understand it, yet you can never understand it totally. It is elusive, it escapes. It is within reach, but it is not within grasp. You are always coming closer and closer to it, but you never arrive. And the day you arrive, then you are no more there; the distinction between the seeker and the sought disappears."

They say that dreams are only real as long as they last. Couldn't you say the same thing about life?

Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die tomorrow.

The best pillow is one with a heartbeat. - Christopher Tao <3

Life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile. Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. -Twain

It's beauty that captures your attention; personality which captures your heart.

To be great is to be misunderstood.

Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.

Nothing is at last sacred but the integrity of your own mind.

Wit makes its own welcome, and levels all distinctions. No dignity, no learning, no force of character, can make any stand against good wit.

“Go to heaven for the climate and hell for the company.”

“I have never let my schooling interfere with my education.”

The ancestor of every action is a thought.

Two things are infinite; the universe and human stupidity; and I'm no sure about the universe.

Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts.

“Good friends, good books, and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life.”

Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old.

The beauty of a soul surfaces in the most rare of occasions.

Don't be too timid and squeamish about your actions. All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.

Every great and commanding moment in the annals of the world is the triumph of some enthusiasm.

Our knowledge is the amassed thought and experience of innumerable minds.

Children are all foreigners.

The world belongs to the energetic.

Few people are capable of expressing with equanimity opinions which differ from the prejudices of their social environment. Most people are incapable of forming such opinions

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds

Its not what you look at that matters, it's what you see.

He who can no longer pause to wonder and stand in rapt awe is as good as dead; his eyes closed to the world.

I am a deeply religious nonbeliever - this is a somewhat new kind of religion

Joy in looking and comprehending is natures most beautiful gift

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is to not stop questioning.

Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better.

Most people say it is the intellect which makes a great scientist. They are wrong; it is character.

My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the light details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind.

The process of scientific discover is, in effect, a continual flight from wonder.

The true sign of intelligence is not knowledge but imagination 

Democracy becomes a government of bullies tempered by editors.

He has not learned the lesson of life who does not every day surmount a fear

If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me

He who is in love is wise and is becoming wiser, sees newly every time he looks at the object beloved, drawing from it with his eyes and his mind those virtues which it possesses.

Trust men and they will be true to you; treat them greatly, and they will show themselves great.

Every artist was first an amateur.

The reward of a thing well done is to have done it.

The best effect of fine persons is felt after we have left their presence.

“Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”

“Yesterday is but today's memory, tomorrow is today's dream.”

“Each of us has an inner dream that we can unfold if we will just have the courage to admit what it is. And the faith to trust our own admission.”

Dreams are free...

“I was gratified to be able to answer promptly, and I did. I said I didn’t know.”

“Wrinkles should merely indicate where the smiles have been.”

Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it.
Steve Jobs

“Loyalty to country ALWAYS. Loyalty to government, when it deserves it.”

“The trouble is not in dying for a friend, but in finding a friend worth dying for.”

“If you don't read the newspaper, you're uninformed. If you read the newspaper, you're mis-informed.” 

“You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.” ― Johnny Depp

“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.” ― Mahatma Gandhi

“The heart has its reasons which reason knows not.” ― Blaise Pascal

Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see.

What a wee little part of a person's life are his acts and his words! His real life is led in his head, and is known to none but himself.

“I learned this, at least, by my experiment: that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.”

“Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth.”

“How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.”

“All good things are wild and free.”

“I am a happy camper so I guess I’m doing something right. Happiness is like a butterfly; the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder.”

“Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.”

As for doing good; that is one of the professions which is full. Moreover I have tried it fairly and strange as it may seem am satisfied that it does not agree with my constitution -HDT 

I once had a sparrow alight upon my shoulder for a moment, while I was hoeing in a village garden and I felt that I was more distinguished by that circumstance taht I should have been by and epaulet I could have worn.

It is usually the imagination that is wounded first rather than the heart; it being much more sensitive 

We must learn to reawaken and keep ourselves awake, not by mechanical aid, but by an infinite expectation of the dawn.

For what are classics but the noblest thoughts of man?

To affect the quality of the day, that is the highest of arts.

Friends... They cherish one another's hopes. They are kind to one another's dreams.

“However mean you life is, meet and live it; do not shun it and call it hard names. It is not so bad as you are. It looks poorest when you are richest. The fault-finder will find faults even in paradise. Love your life, poor as it is. You may perhaps have some pleasant, thrilling, glorious hours, even in a poorhouse. The setting sun is reflected from the windows of the almshouse as brightly as from the rich man’s abode; the snow melts before its doors as early in the spring. Cultivate property like a garden herb, like sage. Do not trouble yourself much to get new things, whether clothes or friends. Turn the old; return to them. Things do not change; we change. Sell your clothes and keep your thoughts… Superfluous wealth can buy superfluities only. Money is not required to buy one necessary of the soul.”
― Henry David Thoreau

“What would men be without women? Scarce, sir...mighty scarce.”- M.Twain

In human intercourse the tragedy begins, not when there is misunderstanding about words, but when silence is not understood.

Dreams are the touchstones of character

“Get your facts first, and then you can distort them as much as you please.”

“Education: the path from cocky ignorance to miserable uncertainty.”

“When we remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained.”

“If animals could speak, the dog would be a blundering outspoken fellow; but the cat would have the rare grace of never saying a word too much.”

Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out shouting holy shit what a ride!  

“Education consists mainly of what we have unlearned.”

“Life does not consist mainly, or even largely, of facts or happenings. It consist mainly of the storm of thoughts that is forever flowing through one's head.”

“Reality can be beaten with enough imagination.”

“Civilization is a limitless multiplication of unnecessary necessaries.”

Time To Live & Time To Hope

Who would have known that hope comes at a cost?

It rises up like a phoenix from the ashes of the lost

No reset, no rewind – never mind

What is time, anyhow?

Nothing but perception- such a misconception

There is no before or after in the segments of space

The cognition of time is a relative race against nothingness

A reality that dissipates without active consciousness

Day by day, it is we that make up this story and rhyme

A concept we abide to our lives through

An endless cycle is what it comes to

 If only I could give you two gifts

I would impart a new reality

Where time is limitless and hope is its companion.

Time to live and time to hope.

Phantom Man

Where are you
Phantom man-
In some other land
In my ever dreams- It seems      
You endlessly evade me
Searchingly and seemingly,
I see you In a mist of quantum seams
I scream silently for you
But I wake up and wisps  
Of smoke choke the silhouette
Of what could be

And back you fall Into my dreams.

                      

A tear drops with hopes of yesterdays and promises of tomorrow

Why must life be so difficult sometimes? Why all this heart ache and pain? These tears, they fall from our eyes and drip acid to our hearts. They swell up in our chest and we try so vigilantly to pretend like everything is ok and that we will be all right. But sometimes life isn’t all right. Sometimes life finds us on a cold dark empty corner of loneliness with nothing in our pockets but a fistful of tears and sadness. I understand that in the deepest moments of pain the only response to be felt to the hollowness in your heart is the echoing response of your own. And I know that this pain resurrects in the quietest moments of reflection. Sometimes it finds us in our car, at work, at home, in our beds, ….on a cliff… The little girl in me cries for all of you who are going through these moments of loneliness. I’m sorry…I’m sorry we don’t always understand… I’m sorry you feel so alone, I’m sorry the answers to your questions are often illusively just out of reach…But maybe if the answers were so readily available that would defeat the purpose of living this journey. Maybe life deals us this heartache so we can appreciate beauty even more when we see it. Maybe this deep reflection makes us stronger so in turn, we can be there for someone else. I know that life isn’t always easy. At the end of the day though you have to realize how beautiful life is and you have to believe in the hope of a better tomorrow… Because I believe in you….

The Connection...

I look into your eyes
And feel the depth of your soul
For when I gaze into yours
I recognize my own...

Into Dreams..

...Where people dance away the night
Where laughter thrives and youth abides
In this land there’s much to do
Where every thought becomes your truth
All these things I wish to see
I close my eyes and then I dream…

HANDS

HANDS ARE OUR EXPRESSIONS

TO OUR FEELINGS INSIDE

WHETHER TOUCHING OR CARESSING

YOUR HEART THEY WILL ABIDE

A HAND TO HELP A FRIEND

A GUIDE TO HELP A BROTHER

A TOUCH FROM BABE TO MOTHER

A CARESS FROM LOVE TO LOVER

ENTERTWINING FINGERS

FEELING WARM AND SAFE

YOUR HANDS ARE YOUR REFLECTORS

IT..S WITH THEM THAT YOU EMBRACE

AS A LOVERS HANDS

RUNS SWIFTLY OVER YOU

THEIR TOUCH IGNITES A FIRE

THERES NOTHING YOU CAN DO

DISCOVERING NEW CONTOURS

IT SEEMS A LOVERS MAZE

AND WHEN YOU FEEL ITS PRESSURE

IT SENDS YOUR MIND ABLAZE

YOUR HANDS BRING THE FINAL CLOSURE

THE SENSURE THAT I NEED

PUT YOUR HANDS UPON ME

AND SET MY BODY FREE..

Cascade

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Sometimes in the recess of my soul

Thoughts cascade like raindrops

Down they fall to the jungle floor of my mind

Sweet soft dew drops of hope - A deeper sense of meaning it evokes

A swift pelting of moisture within, falling two by two

One after the other, each to be construed

As they turn to stone A building is made,

Within this torrent mind of mine - A shelter to keep me warm and safe

Emotions like memories shine ~Alone within the shelter of my mind~

We close our eyes 'cause the "truth hurts"

I slowly learn that childhood dreams are not reality. That happily ever after is nothing but a child's bedtime story. Once put back on the shelf it doesn't apply to your life or mine. Forget about the love. Lose the rhymes and forget about the times.

The times when you thought true love came easily, when you believed in "meant to be's." When you believed in candlelight and how everything would be alright.

But the truth hurts more than these daydreams of the stars in a young girls eyes when she believes.

These stars, they've gone so far, shooting away the hopes of a prince charming, passing by are the arms she thought she would take refuge in – now its only about who will win.

Pride takes front seat to the back seat fantasy that used to drive with notions of forever after, I no longer even know what it is I am after, or if there's an end to this tale that rhymes with happily ever.

I feel lost in a game I didn't even want to play. I just wanted to love and be loved the same- Now I truly know what the lyrics mean when they say, "You're here, But so far away."

And I say… Do you remember?

I push and you pull away, it's become a game and we tumble in pain, it's a shame it had to end this way, when all I wanted was for you to say…

*I love you.*

I'm sorry I'm not always the girl for you. I'm sorry I can't always be strong and I'm sorry for the times when I'm wrong.

When you're hurting I cry inside, you touch my heart with just your eyes. Eyes of sorrow, eyes of laughter- I wish I was your ever after. "

-If only I believed we could get past all of this- But fairy tales… They don't exist.

POU/NCE

Mind at a s-t-a-n-d-still
Body clenched up tight
Wanting to shout out
But having nothing & no one to fight
"I wanna break something
I wanna lash out
I wanna scream out"
But it's TIME OUT!
So I crouch down like a tiger in wait
It's MY life, MY choice not a fucking debate!
Ready to pounce
But still on my side of the ring
Ready to pounce
Impatient for the bell of the referee
Mohammad's bee aint got no sting
Not compared to the emotion in me
I've got a passion - I've got a fire and a will
Like a fucking dam- at a stand still!
Ready to bust free
Break the ChAiNs that are bounding my feet
Sapphire waves are now shooting out flames of desire
This deep intense blue is ready to SpArK * fires
Under darkly veiled expressions
Beyond closed and shuttered eyes
Tepid emotions
Can no longer be denied!
P-O-U-N-C-E!
… "I wanna break something
I wanna lash out
I wanna scream out"
But it's TIME OUT!

~B-L-I-N-D~

Whil3 sl33ping with Eyes 0p3ned
Y0ur s0ul calls out for r3lease
Within y0ur mixed 3m0tions
C0mes a cry that brings y0u t0 y0ur kn3es
A r3fug3 is what y0u s33k
0f a h0p3…and but a dr3am
Awak3 you c0m3 to find
~...ThAt n0tHinG's whAt It sEeMs...~

INNOCENCE...

WHEN PEOPLE PONDER INNOCENCE
I THINK UPON OUR YOUTH
BEFORE THEIR MINDS ARE TAINTED
BY THE COLD AND NAKED TRUTH
WHEN SMILES HOLD NO LIES
AND DEMONS ARE KEPT AT BAY
WHEN IN THEIR MINDS THEY HAVE NO DOUBT
THAT MOMMY LEADS THE WAY
BEFORE THEY STRIKE AWARENESS
UPON THE YOUS AND MES
ON HOW WE THINK AND WHY WE DO
~~~BECAUSE WE DON'T BELIEVE ~~~

*Yawn*

Groggy Mornings

Silken Smiles

Dreamy thoughts, all the while

Ruffled blankets

Cat stretch yawn

Sleepy eyes, awakened dawn...

ETERNAL RAPTURE

THE ETERNAL RAPTURE OF THE UNCONSCIOUS MIND
BREATHES IN DREAMS, AND MOVES IN SEQUENCES WE HAVE YET TO DEFINE
A TUNNEL OF SECLUSION
A MIME TO FORMAT THOUGHTS
THE SELF IS BUT A MAP
AND IN IT..S CODE YOU..RE CAUGHT
RAPID MOVEMENTS OF THE EYE
IN STILL FORM YOU WANDER
INTO THE WORLD OF ChAoS
BEWaRE of GoINg UnDer

D*R*I*P

Shimmery Orange Glittery Gold Dust
The Heat of Summer, The Sleek Humid Musk

The Soft Dripping Moisture On Cool Blades Of Grass

Secluded Emotions Entombed In The Past ..........